wade was tumbling through dreams and nightmares.
people pulled at him from all directions. faceless corpses of those that he had killed.
he had never thought about it before, but now that he did he felt so sick that throwing up would not be enough. his whole body was pulsating and his head felt it would explode. and through this dark sea of despair, he saw the one face that could only make him feel worse.

"mother!! I could not save you!! there was nothing i could do!"

the face looked at him longingly, then she smiled a sweet smile of pure love. the love of a mother for her child. this made wade feel worse.
"mother, you must not look upon me... for i now know what terrible deeds i have wrought.. "
he looked around him. his face now a picture of terror. all the corpses that flowed around him were grasping ahold of his body.
the face looked on and smiled some more.
then she whispered.
"Wade.. I am sorry i was taken from you when you were so young.. i could not teach you right fro wrong. you have done some terrible things but you can make up for it."
"no!! i can never make up for it! i know what it means to know fear! I know the amount of pain and suffering i have caused! I can neer make up for that!"
"wade, you are strong. you are my son, and if i did ever teach you anything before i went it was to be strong and walk forwards with your head high"
the figure faded and there was a kid crouching on the floor of the bedroom.
the kid was bawling into his arms.
the kid disappeared and then the bed was not empty.
wades mother was laying in the bed and that ws when the little kid ran into the room.
she coughed a weak cough.
" wade.." she said in a weak voice.
"wade, you must be strong... I am not long for this world.. you must be strong.. do not cry."
"but mother , where are you going? isn't there anything i can do? I can do anything you know.."
"yes i know, i gave birth to an amazing child. But you cannot hold back death... be brave now, when i go, i want you to go and have fun. don't worry about me, be brave and have fun. "
"but mother.. i dont want to be brave. i want you to stay.."
"be brave..."
" mother... mother? "
it all went black.
"remember wade? do you remember? i asked you to be strong..."
the face that was in the bed then appeared before wade again.
"wade. you must be strong. you have caused a lot of pain, but you must atone for it. but whatever happens.. i will always love you..
you are a man now. you do not need to play anymore.. now you need to make up for the past.. but even if you don't i will forgive you.."
" I do not deserve to be forgiven... i have caused this much misery... how can i ever atone for my past mistakes... HOW CAN I REPAY THOSE PEOPLE THEIR LIVES?!? "
" though your actions, you can make it so that no more are lost... you are strong.. you are a warrior.. you can save more lives than those that you took. this will never bring them back.. this will never make them disappear, and you will always be guilty of your crimes, but at least you will be making up for what you did the best that you can..."
the face faded and very slowly disappeared.
wade found that he had opened his eyes and the light was bright.
he looked around. he was still in that strange other place.
he could see the dead walking in one direction.
he stood up slowly, and tried to draw strength into his body.
the he looked around. his back straight, his chin held high.
"listen to me those that i have killed!" he shouted out over the spectres that were marching past.
" listen to me! I may not be able to repay that which i have taken! But i swear on this day, I will take every effort to make sure that no more suffer as long as i live!
That is my feeble effort to repay that which was taken. I may not ever cover a fraction of the debt that i owe, but as long as i draw breath that is what i will do.
I swear this on my very life!"
the faces that had turned towards him were no longer gaping and moaning. they were now set in a look of determination. every face turned toward hjim was giving him a look that said " if you don't will never let you rest"
then the figures slowly faded away.

It was quiet. this strange world still had him.
he wasn't sure what he would do to help when he was stuck in this alternate world.
he knew he wasn't dead. he had been drawn here by something. perhaps it was his mother combined with the wounds he had sustained.
he looked around for some clue.

he spotted the shadows of the companions he had arrived with.
he spotted the guyver that had saved his life. he followed.
the three figures walked along a passageway and started down the stairs. nearing the bottom of the stairs, wade was on their heels. he could tickle them but he held back. kavor seemed to sense him as he kept glancing backwards but looked confused. wade saw a shadow creeping about.
as they crept further and further along in the passageway very cautiously wade saw the shadow that he had seen earlier, creeping around.. it was climbing higher and then it hit an opening above where the group were walking.
they had no idea that it wass there. looking up, the dimensions seemed to blur and fuzz. he saw the face odf a hideous beast looking down. saliva drippped from enormous fangs, spines on its back bristled.
wade felt his adrenalyne rising. he had not felt the urge to fight for a while. but never had the urge taken him in this way. his heart race increased he had never felt anything like it.
the creature got ready to pounce. and then everything stopped.

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